I had Faith once, but logic got in the way of that.
Now I have lost Faith, and all the good things that come with.
Remember all the times I said logic gives you all the answers,
I lied. Lucidity gave me a sagacity of self-preservation.
But self-preservation comes with a cost.
Self-preservation made a choice for me,
and I put Faith at arm’s length. For a moment I felt safe.
Turns out rationality has cost me the whole enchilada.
Lucidity has cost me Faith, Hope, Love and Happiness.
Shrewdness for some time; Yes, stopped me from making some
bad verdicts, but this time Logic is costing me everything.
Logic kept me sane, from making the “measured” wrong choices
I scrupulously assumed Logic was the way to go, would keep me
in an orthodox state and that I wouldn’t have qualms.
This time, Remorse is knocking on my medulla
maybe it will soon leave, maybe it won’t
All that I mete out to Faith.
Logic for some time, has been leading me awry
So I have realized.
Sabotaging self-happiness because of Logic. Not anymore.
When I had Faith, I felt happy, optimistic, human, love.
When I lost Faith, for the second time in my entire life,
I felt regret. It is not a nice feeling. Truth.
Lord I know I haven’t been to you lately,
But as you said in Matt 7:7,
Lord, bring Faith back to me.
Bring Faith back into my life,
For Faith gives me hope, a sense of self worth,
Faith makes feel loved and I too love Faith.